What if this happens? What if that happens? What if this doesn't happen? These are common questions for me.
I tend to worry a lot. It's something I've done ever since I was a child, and I have no idea why I do it so much. Perhaps it's because of something that happened when I was a kid, or maybe it's because of all the the things that could possibly go wrong. Indeed, I do worry about the things that can go wrong with a situation; probably more than other people do. I guess it's just a part of me.
Right now, the things I worry about are things like, "What if they don't give me the financial aid that the FAFSA says I should get?" or "Will I really make a good teacher?" or even "Am I really a good boyfriend?" I'm told not to worry, but it really doesn't help. I'm not even trying to live up to anyone's expectations except my own, and it still doesn't keep me from being worried that I won't be happy.
I guess this is just a part of who I am. I'm always going to be this way. I just hope that it won't be as bad as it has been in the past.
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